Life right now is sweet. I have been wonderfully blessed. I love work, I love where I live, and I am enjoying a sweet time with the love of my life. All of the blessings we have received are a direct blessing and gift from our Lord--we know that none of this is deserved or of our own power.
The season is changing--(fall is on it's way!) and this season of life for me is very different than any other. I am finally done with school and enjoying being a part of the work force. Engagement is a different and fun time of life that will be gone so quick. I finally feel "adult" and am loving the responsibility and independence that comes along with work. It's all so new, and so sweet.
But there are things we miss. Tomorrow is the first month anniversary of Nanny's entrance into Heaven. Life is so different without her here--I can not imagine her joy in Heaven to be finally connected for eternity to Jesus, but here on Earth, we still long for her. All of my drives to and from Houston are a time when I remember how she loved to talk to me on the phone and accompany me on my drives. I so deeply want her to enjoy this season of life with us and be a part of how life is changing. I know she would be so proud and excited for Sam and I, and we love having her so active in our lives. We will be reunited with her in Heaven, but we still long and ache for her wisdom, love, and unselfish care and concern here in our lives now.
I have moved to Houston, and am experiencing Austin-withdraw. I miss the friends, university life, and church family that I had in Austin. While I know the Lord has placed me in Houston for a specific reason, I still yearn to be reunited with the life he gave me in Austin.
But through all of this, Samuel and I have to trust the Lord. His plan for our marriage and for our life is so much greater than what we can create for ourselves. We don't like being separated in two different cities, but we know that what the Lord has for us is best. The old hymn "Tis so Sweet" has been a recent prayer of mine.
’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood;
And in simple faith to plunge me
’Neath the healing, cleansing flood!
Yes, ’tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace.
I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.
To listen, go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DdgkvnsHjM&feature=related
It reminds me of the childlike faith that we are called to have--the trust knowing that our heavenly Father will take care of our every need--what a treasure we have to GET to trust Him. The verse Matthew 7:11 is brought to my mind at this time: 11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!
In this season, and every season, I have a father that will provide and care for every need. How sweet. How refreshing.