there are days now that make living in Houston seem like a lifetime ago.
a life filled with smiling days, golden sun and breeze.
and although the time in Austin is short, if I'm really honest it's been hard.
hard to swallow, hard to keep down and blink back the water that's ever springing from my eyes.
it's not what was expected.
it's not as easy as it was.
my heart keeps longing for what was.
hanging to any feeble thread of life as it used to be.
work as it used to be.
and yet my body is here.
in this new, foreign place.
new people, new rules.
and it makes me wonder:
is this what we wanted? is this really what God gave?
is this really good?
and it is. my mind knows it is,
but my heart's still lingering on something else.