if you missed our big news: we're moving.
You can catch yourself up over here.
we're 33 days away from the day Sam leaves Houston.
and in my heart, this very minute, the questions and doubt ring loud.
why now, Lord?
why leaving our friends?
why when we are comfortable?
why leave when I love my job?
because He is better.
this plan is better.
better means leaving good--leaving great.
better means trusting that this isn't as good as it gets.
and at moments, just moments better doesn't feel right. better leaves me crying daily in my office.
better doesn't seem enough when it might mean living separately. better seems harsh when plans get postponed. it doesn't feel better to walk this and know He gave it. that He's allowing my heart the pain and sorrow of leaving. when, at times, it feels a world sitting on my chest, keeping the air from filling my lungs.
but He's better.
and better is enough.