I hate tapering. Before every marathon, the 2 weeks before you are supposed to cut down you mileage and allow your muscles to re-build before the race. For me, it always becomes a time of laziness. A couple weeks of "why go out if it's only 4 miles?"
Add into that my birthday (yesteryday), Valentines, and going out of town to visit friends, and all my modivation is gone. I'm happy with a snack in hand and running far from my mind.
That is, until it catches up. Two days ago I went out to run and my legs were concrete. CONCRETE. I couldn't get them to move. They were stiff and after each step I wanted to stop. I couldn't get my mind in the right place, and the fears of "Oh HOW am I going to do a marathon" keep creeping in.
And so, I went a got a massage. I let the therapist know about my running and leg issues and hoped for the best. After an hour of tortue, she worked out a lot of issues and demanded I start foam rolling more regularly. I have a roller, but sort of do it not that often. At all.
But, mostly I'm sharing all this to say: I'm 10 days from the marathon, and despite all the training I can still get nervous. I can still doubt if I'm going to make it (even though I've done this race before.) And when you eat like crap, your body feels like crap.