it's not that i'm not tired. trust me, i'm tired.
just that my mind buzzes constantly.
of custom orders, homeworks, things to study, jobs to apply for
of dishes in the sink. kitchens that need cleaning. husbands that need more attention.
of runs that need to be run, weight that needs to be lost.
when I first started blogging, I was so intimidated by the "big blogs"
they seemed to have it all together.
happy kids, a clean house, great writing, adorable blog. HOW did they do it?
i used to finish reading blogs and feel inadequate. i didn't measure up.
as I have gotten to know a few of those ladies
there is one thing I have learned:
they
and that's good.
there is so much we don't know about each other.
and so much we assume.
there is so much I haven't shared.
I know my struggles are nothing compared to a lot of you guys.
I know that our job search for Sam is such a small thing on the level of problems we could have.
(he still HAS a job, which in itself is a huge blessing).
to me, this blog is a place of real. not of pretty-mashed up pictures that make all of our lives seem perfect, but of real women trying to live the life they're called to, and praising God along the way.
i have a desire for this to be a community of women loving on each other, ministering to each other.
so I'll praise Him at 11:30, and 1:30, and when I wake up way too early at 6:30.
This is a great post. I can so relate to a mind all abuzz when I should be getting some much needed sleep. I can also relate to the assumptions, comparing myself, and so on. I love your heart in this post and so happy to have found your blog!
ReplyDeleteWow, so awesome. I am so glad that I get the chance to get to know women like you. By the way, emailing you back this afternoon!
ReplyDeleteOn nights when my mind won't shut down, I try to pray Psalms 127:2 over and over.
ReplyDeleteI love this post, though. It's so easy to compare myself to others and feel inadequate or ill equipped for my responsibilities. The truth is though, that we are inadequate without Christ- it's only through Him that we find our value!
GREAT post! I had the same feelings when I started blogging. Still do sometimes but it always helps to see a post like this to remind me that no life is perfect.
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