Monday, September 19, 2011

dreams

I am a dreamer, a planner
a liver in tomorrow-er
I have dreams of homes, of babies, of new jobs, of more education.
I want to be the best at what I do; I want to be appreicated by those I work with
I dream of being the Proverbs 31 wife, of helping my boss find the esterase.
I dream of  a PhD.

but in all these dreams, who am I?  sometimes I wonder if I am fit to be a wife, a mother, to get more education? In all of these dreams, am I missing things now because I am focused on things to be?  I do not want to count the life I have now as a failure because I didn't fulfill these dreams.

dreams hurt. when I share these innermost desires; I am admitting pain when they don't happen.  but I want to feel. to feel the joy, and the pain. I don't want to be numbed to disappointment and quit dreaming.

I want to relinquish the utter control of those dreams.  I am not saying those are not still things my heart desires, but to know that I have  God who is good, and who delights in giving good gifts.  and if He fills those dreams, or if He gives new dreams, I can be full and giving thanks. I want my dreams to be able to change. I want a new dream; a dream that seeks only to bring glory and praise to the one who made me. a dream where the glory is not in my accolades, but in the goodness of God that I have seen.

because I still have dreams, and a God that fills them.


6 comments:

  1. I love this post! Thank you for sharing it! Love your blog!

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  2. Hi there! So glad I stumbled upon your blog. You write beautifully. And I loved this post because it is so similar to mine from this morning! We most both be itching to DO SOMETHING :)

    http://laurabrowe.blogspot.com/2011/09/feeling-free.html

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  3. I love that saying there at the end..I am discovering this to be more and more true as life goes on...God truly does know my dreams better than I do :)

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  4. Great post!


    I am a new follower!!

    Feel free to pop by mine and say hello ;)

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  5. Love that post and love that quote... It's one of those that you will always hold with you!

    Love your blog... And your cutesy headbands! New follower!!

    Xoxo, Stephanie @ Blonde Highlights

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  6. Hiya! I found my way here from Jamie's giveaway and ohmigosh, your rosette stuff is beautiful! I ADORE the yellow, gray and white one! so pretty! Anyways, I just wanted to be sure to say hello while I was here.

    PS - love the quote graphic on this post. so true.

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