Monday, August 15, 2011

i don't know what i'm doing.

sometimes the fear of failure is crippling to me. I don't want to admit that I am trying something new
because if it doesn't work
or go as planned,
then I've failed.

for all of the world to see


but if I just keep it a secret, then I can't be
ashamed
humiliated
embarrassed

when I fail. because nobody will know my little secret.

but when I keep it a secret,
I don't let those around me in.
I don't give them the opportunity to witness what the Lord is doing in my life
I don't let them pray me through it
and I don't let them see the Glory of God all the way through.

this is my little secret. that has been growing in my heart,
and that I am ready to try.

I am going back to school.
for pre-reqs for nursing school.
pre reqs start Aug 30; nursing school next summer.

and I am afraid to fail; but more afraid of not giving all of the Glory to God.
whether I fail or succeed, He deserves all the glory.

5 comments:

  1. Congrats, Lauren! It's a big step to put your dreams out there like that, but I know that you have so many people who support you in your life. You go, girl!

    And I got my necklace in the mail today. I smiled. And I love it. :)

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  2. That's so great Lauren! Congrats! I know exactly how you are feeling; I often struggle with that, but it is so awesome that the Lord puts people in our lives to walk through it all with and that He himself never leaves us! You are going to do great!

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  3. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I wish you the best in going back to school and pursuing a nursing career. I'm currently struggling, torn between trying to do things by myself and seeking God for him to provide the way. But I'm working, and getting better with trusting God each day. Thanks for being an inspiration!

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  4. congrats! If you feel God leading you in this direction, He will provide you with everything you need to accomplish this task! We need more caring, compassionate nurses in this world!

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Lauren