i don't know what i'm doing.

sometimes the fear of failure is crippling to me. I don't want to admit that I am trying something new
because if it doesn't work
or go as planned,
then I've failed.

for all of the world to see


but if I just keep it a secret, then I can't be
ashamed
humiliated
embarrassed

when I fail. because nobody will know my little secret.

but when I keep it a secret,
I don't let those around me in.
I don't give them the opportunity to witness what the Lord is doing in my life
I don't let them pray me through it
and I don't let them see the Glory of God all the way through.

this is my little secret. that has been growing in my heart,
and that I am ready to try.

I am going back to school.
for pre-reqs for nursing school.
pre reqs start Aug 30; nursing school next summer.

and I am afraid to fail; but more afraid of not giving all of the Glory to God.
whether I fail or succeed, He deserves all the glory.