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Showing posts with label worry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label worry. Show all posts

Thursday, April 19, 2012

the waiting parts


if you've been around here for long enough,
you know that I blog mostly to tell our story.
the story of two sinners, covered in grace.
it's a story that paints the goodness of God,
not the goodness of us.


and this season of our story sounds a lot like waiting.
quiet, eager anticipation.
just waiting.

waiting for me to finish my pre-recs
waiting for Sam to find his passion in his career
waiting to know what city we'll eventually end up in. after all my school is done.
waiting to buy a house.
waiting (for AWHILE) for kids

waiting.


and sometimes.
well, most of the time.
my selfish and impatient heart does not want to wait.
like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum,
I beg and plead and cry to God
why not now!?!
why not now?


because the waiting changes.
the waiting is the incubator.
he's prepping, preparing.
and if we're being honest, this waiting isn't so bad.
( I will not be a whiney blogger, nor a whiney person.)

the waiting can be hard.
but the waiting can draw my heart to the only giver of life.
so I'll stay in the waiting.
because I want to transition well.
when the time comes.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

information overload

this is my new notepad. 
i think it sums up my life right now pretty well.
SO MUCH TO DO.
which, for a planner and worrier like myself, just turns into 
SO MUCH WORRY

and not near enough trust.

I have a new print in my office from naptime diaries, and the truth in it is calming to my spirit.



"For this commandment that I command you today is not too hard for you, neither is it too far off"
There are lots of choices the hubs and I will be making in the near-near distant future
further schooling
jobs
cities to reside in

and it all gets so overwhelming.
but it's not mine to worry about.

for today, I am just focusing on that commandment.
when the worry finds itself seeping back in
I'm turning it over to the Lord
time and time again

Sidebar:  I may have worn my hair the same as yesterday just so I would have time to finish this necklace this morning.  just maybe.
go get yourself one. 

Thursday, July 7, 2011

someday

someday.
oh, someday.  you steal joy from today.
I make wishes and lists of all the things I want.
all the things I have to have until my life really starts.
someday, you make me miss the joy of today.
you make me regret not valuing each day.
you make me miss moments in the past that I was so eager to pass.

someday.
you are the opposite of contentment.
you are vile and hold a promise you will never fulfill.
you leave me always waiting for one more day, one more thing.

so i'm trading you in.  i'll trade all the dreams of someday for today.
today is someday.  today is all that I had wished for.
today, i am blessed with
a job
a loving husband
a home
food on our table

this verse rings true in my heart today
"Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned
how to be content with whatever I have."
Philippians 4:11